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Thelma and Loise they came to be. Sharing a history of misery. Free in mind...they took on the world. Bedside warriors. Their capes hospital grade. Cutting loose together. Miles apart. Thelma and Louise. Champions of the underdogs. Poverty philanthropists. Making their way in illness. Bodies in battle. Thelma and Louise. Holding hands countries apart. Praying for others..for themselves. One lost. Thelma floats...no Louise. The game was over...or was it? Thelma and Louise. The goal goes on. I have your hand. I will not stop. Spreading the message. Sharing our love.

I stood on the line. I wanted to go. People don't like to talk about anything where the word Suicide comes to play. Like many things it is a taboo topic. Cringe. I was on the line. My health. My environment. My loneliness. Everything just came to a head. I struggle with severe anxiety. Depression has had it's hold for some time now. Mostly linked to having cancer issues and stress. Do I still want to go? Not at this moment. I am forgiving of self. I have been here before. In my life I have a unique defense mechanism called Disassociative Identity Disorder. Alters/parts step in when needed. They were needed yesterday and today. I miss time. They were present. Today they prevented me from going. They stayed until I was out of the risk zone. Keep talking about Suicide Awareness. It could be a loved one or you.

Growing Up With an Undiagnosed Schizophrenic My father was diagnosed as Schizophrenic in May of 1999. He lived to see 63 and passed that September. My entire life I grew up with a dad that was both kind and cruel. He used different types of self medicating and distractive or destructive activities to seek refuge from his state. I have always said that when he was good he was. When he wasn’t he was really was bad. It cycled. With these cycles came periods without jobs, loss of driving license, periods of abusive behavior, also eccentric behavior. He would start to hoard things or collect one thing and carry in his car trunk. He would dress up on non-dress up going on. He came to my office work dressed as a full woman. This was a new one…. My dad was also sensitive and caring. When he was good he was a good father. He tried to keep it together but it never lasted long. When he was good he was active and took us to the beach. He played race cars with my brother and I. He was funny

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