5 Alive

I have your hand fellow warrior. Whomever you are. Whatever your battle is. I may not have the same, but I know what it feels like to fight...with days perhaps you just may not want to. I get that. I do a lot of breathing. I am focusing on just each moment. Looking for the little things that can help me keep going. My desire is to isolate. I do not want to burden another. Someone said to me " why do you decide if I don't have time for you?"...They are right. I need to reach out. The other person can decide if they can help. I make small goals. Each day push on. I still have things to do!! So if you are in the crap boat...I am with you. Flashlight in tow and life vests. I got your hand.

I am recovering from Rectal Surgery. Waiting for results. I am relieved the surgery is over. It wasn't my first there and I can only hope my last...anal cancer is no fun. It has been a very long road now. Years. Several surgeries. Fingers crossed. Staying positive is a great saying....when it isn't your butt in pain. When it isn't your battle. I try very hard. Some days it is just not there. It is a process. My life has been flipped and turned and upside down and righted. I am not quite righted. Lol. Doing my best under the circumstances. And moments of smiling...don't make me laugh..it hurts. 😜