The Nowhere Traveler
There are trials, impediments, limitations, many blocks and walls in life. Everyone faces them. Each person has different coping skills and ways to manage. Some are things that cannot be maneuvered. The wall is just there. I have a variety of life limitations. Some I manage, cope or are blocks. For me having moments of dissociation or full split away of personality D.I.D (and severe anxiety disorder) I am leary of meeting new people, or going where I may struggle with anxiety and be misunderstood. I don't go far, and I am always in a struggle if it's unfamiliar. I get obscene fear. I feel ill. I get ill. It's awful when I can't control the feelings. I feel disheartened, sad, and embarrassed. I cannot be or do what many can. I can turn inwardly angry with myself. I can be my worst, harsh, nasty critic. But berating myself does not 'fix' the inner disorder. I have done years of self work. I have cycles of time I feel more free of this anxiety. I don't k