5 Alive

Big bear was afraid.  What an ominous feeling, he thought. "I am a bear. I fear nothing. I rule much of this forest. " What is it about a hug that I fear?  These animals are small.  None compare to my ferocity.  This little raccoon is lost. He is crying for a hug. "I want mys mama. Pres hugs me. Hewp me big fuzzy" How can we do this? Bear is perplexed.  Small raccoon. Very big bear. "Kin you lay downs and I kin crawls up ond you?" Bear wasn't sure this was a good idea. "Little raccoon I am too big" A little " Pwes!!!" Bear got down. He rolled onto his back. Little raccoon crawled up on his chest. Tiny sobs eased.  A hug. Hmm...nice..Bear thought.  The sobs were smaller. Soon a forest came full with raccoons. Trees full of bigs and babies. One climbed down. It sat gently in Bears paw.  He raised it to his chest.  The two raccoon were dancing there.  Tiny feet tickled him.  Baby was found. Bear had learned something new. Hugs were the

It's that time of year! The trees are going up with bows and bells. Lights aglow all about. Greetings in the spirit of Christmas passed around.   Things to do. People to see. Busy busy busy.... It's been a year since we lost dad /pa and it feels fresh. We want to feel the Spirit..we wish to make a Christmas.   Being fragments, living D.I.D, means several agendas coinciding uncomfortably. Businesses means dissociation time. Lost moments, hours..for me a big blank. Things are getting done one part of me or another.  Lily has been baking and wrapping. Cleaning etc. As a mother figure would.   The tree is up thanks to Maddy. Wee helped decorate.  I did the bows for the tree and got gifts. I have also baked and cleaned etc.  Team effort. It's for my ma and a friend and us.  We are missing pa badly and there are times of just being down and 'off'. The mind has to slow. The body is tired. Emotions run high. Time out is needed.  Then we are back at it. Fragmented and gettin