5 Alive

First off...I hate roller coasters. I been there, done that. Got the badges of those I faced. No more. I only went due to peer pressure. I am the keeper of the stuff now. Find me on a bench. So this life can super suck. It is full of ups and downs. Some experiences are so joyous one would think they'd burst with happiness. Others shattering. I have had about a month of the fast, out of control, lifecoaster. Bad new -  Call from SC Housing that says my priority wait  (already been 2 yrs) likely be as much more to hold on for a move. Stuck in toxic environment. Good news - My Anal Cancer is in remission and I have 6 months free ftom Oncology. Bad news - Aunt Joan dies unexpectedly. Bad news - Saw the ex-husband ( hadn't seen the Gambling man 12 yrs) and had a meltdown. My life being poor and hard. Good news - I don't know who pulled what strings but I have housing. Move 2 weeks. Short notice but wow. Bad news - severe cold 10 days and still going... Bad news - fl

I am in the middle of a fast pack. I finally got safe housing. A nice one bedroom apartment. I have to move within 2 weeks as when they call...you go now. No wait. Little notice. Problem. DID 5 persons one body. There is only so much We can do. First we have the cold from hell. (Day 12 and it is getting better). Push too hard and coughing fit then the hots. Yesterday a fiasco at the folks was water in the basement. Sprung a leak. A flood and a massive mess. Unprepared and scrambling to stop the leak then clean up the big mess. Today....my leg/hip is in screaming pain and I cannot weight bear on that leg. Meantime I am laid up. We are 5 but we have one body. We can only do so much. The body is almost 49. Been through too much surgery and those hips are in bad shape already. We cannot be the One that takes on these big tasks. Fortunate to have a friend here that helped with the flooding. A huge job. Now that person isn't feeling good. I feel aweful to have caused this to

About the Author John Dickson - After a suicide attempt in 2014, John learned that he suffered with depression and, more recently, bipolar disorder. He live with these conditions, undiagnosed, since his teens. On Twitter you can find him as @zelandroid009. He blogs at https:/the3ofme.ga. John is my friend. Go With the Flow If you're reading this post you've already met April. You've been introduced to her alters and you've learned of her history. I’m sure that you’ll agree with me that April is a unique and strong woman, filled with vitality and light. She is, without a doubt, one of the most resilient people I know. April brings light into the room. And when she leaves the room, the resulting loss of light is felt by everyone. When she retreats within herself, that loss of light is felt by her alters. I tell you this because it was this light that first captured my attention on Twitter and then on 5 Alive, April’s blog. Her story is a difficult one that she shares

7 yrs and my first remission. So happy.I am in remission!!! Lots of damage is the pain but I am cleared for 6 months. This is first totally clear check in 7 yrs. HPV related anal cancer just sucks. As all cancers do! Yes. After almost 7 yrs I am officially in Remission. It is a fantastic word. A freedom for 6 months from oncology and pokes and prods etc is awesome. What does it mean? Honestly, we don't know. For today it means no cancer cells are detected or active. I am well aware that Anal Cancer takes many routes. Having hpv related means I will always have hpv with break risk that can turn to tumors. I take my six months with a grain of salt. I will do everything to enjoy the free days.