Mind Break

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So things have been beyond rough. 

In the forefront is my pas Alzheimers. He fell. Landed in hospital. They are keeping him until he gets a home. They move him twice because of Covid cases. He is being sent back to a permanent spot. 

This has been the last 8 weeks. 

My mother ( who I truly believe has dementia ) is 78. She has anger issues. Loads. Venting all over. Immediately puts house up for sale and gets rid of his stuff without talking to her kids. Control issues as well...add manipulative and lies etc. 

Problems.

Big problems between her and I. Lucky me, I am the only child local. At 50 I have lived a lifetime of this type of behavior from her. I try to set boundaries and she steamrolls over them. Now I am getting angry. I am also clearly afraid of her reactions. 

This week was brutal. I phone blocked her but she could leave a message...so I took voicemail off...she was getting a busy signal and prepated to come over when I had decided I was ok to call her. Again the barrage came from her. I had said stop, no more then said I am not doing this conversation again and hung up. 

Frickolla. Stress.

Today ..NO...just NO. I am taking a Mind Break. Try to stay in my zone. 

Sit in the sun. Read. Listen to music. Distract. As best I can, I take today. It's mine. 

I need to do this more. Stay in my zone. Keep my boundaries. Say NO. 

The key for me is to also let go of the after guilt and shame of the niggling past voice. I am a good daughter. 

It is ok to say NO

Abuse by anyone is not acceptable.

Boundaries are healthy.

I can do this. 


Mind Break

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