Weeds

A lifetime of living in the weeds of lies and reality manipulation it was her trials that led her to coping in ways many could not fathom. 

Her mind was young and fragile. In the blasts of traumas it fragramented. 

Building walls and seeking safe harbors. 

It continued through her life. 

The weeds followed. Added, she often made choices that had new weeds of mistruths and pain. 

Relationships that dragged her back under. More weeds. A marriage failed after 13 years of her hopes dashed. Trust blown again. Her reality messed with repeatedly. Lies and addiction...the weeds covered her over.

It was long years of resurfacing. Slowly peeking out to find life.

The last relationship was 7 years. She thought she'd found her place. A person to go old with. Weeds grew. Betrayal. Left. Given a parting gift of hpv cancer. 

10 years later, nearing 52, she wondered if the weeds would stop. She was breathing.  Peeking with hopes. Alone had become ok but no green grass was growing. 

Hack down the weeds. 

Speaking her truths. 

She could only move onward. 

Sowing grass seeds of kindness and love. She was on a path. 

Looking ahead to home.