Rail Nail

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It has a distinct shape. 
The old ones are hand forged. 
They hold the ties. 
Very symbolic if you think about its purpose. 
A simple Rail Nail. 
Bigger than most but uncomplicated. 
One original purpose. 
To bind ties that held rails that cross nations. 
A worldwide tool. 
Used by many to create connections. 

I grew up knowing the Rail Nail. I still own several. My papa had a little of everything over my time, nevermind his! He passed last year. I hold my Rail Nail from him often. I know my siblings have had their Rail Nails. Some hold coats! 

The Nail can be crudely made. It weather's and rusts over time. Some are bent. 

I think of our own family connections. Often a disconnect, strained or just far. We have grown up and apart. Then we come together for moments and that Nail of our bond is there. 

But at times I am like the bent, rusty nail that somehow just doesn't fit. I am misunderstood.  I have PTSD with DID and there is a wedge in some ways. 

We are all different. But we are siblings. We are forever tied. 

That's the Rail Nail. 
Binding 

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  1. Anonymous23 October 2023 at 19:09

    Spike 100lb or 200lb metal pails full of Spikes ,not railnails , connection between 2 lines usually included a Gold Spike to celebrate Union and prosperity from East to West .. Canada and USA 😉

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