Come Back*

She had worked so hard through her demons. She faced her own battles day in and day out. Having faced health issues for more than 4 years she had come to know her purpose as being one to blog about her mental disorder and illness as well as Wellness tools.

She also chose to advocate for others who may be suicidal or feeling down. As often as she reached out for a hand, she was the hand. A friend to many. Often hiding her own pain.

The Demons of the past came knocking. A childhood friend.. someone who needed help, reached out to her. Of course she would not turn away.
Yes 30 years had passed, and they had a history. Some he did not know. Some he did. But 30 years was a long time and she was afraid. He did not know her. She did not know him. Nor did she know if she could trust him. She took the chance.

After meeting several times she shared her own struggles and hopes of showing that he was not alone and that she too was different and that we were all unique. After some time she received a text. It was mocking in nature. Making fun of her disorder. Disassociative identity disorder, the one she took the time to share. She had trusted him and in turn he mocked her not knowing the damage it would cause.
She felt she was a freak. She felt vulnerable and exposed.

6 days in. Her Alters are still holding fort. She is in and out as fear consumes her. Yet she has some help working it out. As protectors her Alters have had her to the hospital for therapy... to see if she could stay to get help. After being turned away to stay they still hold fort.

Feeling soon she will come to the surface perhaps stronger than ever. As altars protectors our hope is that she continues her good work that has become her Purpose. Come back back kind one.