Blurbs of Words

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And then there was silence
But never in her head
A confusion and flurry
Within her
~A.R*

Survived
Survived
Again
Survived
Life's course
With risk
A list to fulfill
Survive
Before
Eatten alive.
~A.R.*

Of all the things I knew
Of what I'd learned
The life experienced
Much still illlusive
My heart
Searching
An answer
Does it exist?
~A.R.*

Held back
One only
Holding so much
Running
Freeing
Shedding away
Yesterdays'
Dropped
And disappated
The tear
~A.R.*

I won't be your puppet
I am nobody's fool
A promise is a deal
Let's be real
I be as I am
Do not misunderstand
Reach deep
To understand
Be there
No games
No deals
It's now for me
Let it be
See
~A.R.*

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