The Lady

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I met this lady. Wow. I was taken aback by her glow when she smiled. She spoke with an animation. A storyteller of sorts.

Tone and mannerisms flowing into different pieces as I watched her. A flash of hidden sadness. A moment in anger, or was it boldness I saw? Returned to glimmer and light.

Breaks of quiet and head turned away. There was more in her. This was obvious. I was eager to know the depth of this woman.

Time and again I sought her out. Getting small snipits of her substance. Learning her desires, her fears, her needs. I pieced  slivers of her life. A story that shattered this individual, yet made her magical.

A being like no other. I wondered where her path would take her. What turns could lay ahead? Would the demons continue to haunt her without invitation? Did her sadness lift? Did her happiness comes? Was her ending hard? Her story continued.

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