Only These Words Come

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Wonderous world
Curious soul
Eyes I see
You and me
Days to battle
Days to learn
Moments of laughter
In darkness
Hold hands
~A.R.*

Laced tight
Bound
With speed
Energy expelled
In stints 
Like fits
Comfort found
Shoes carried
Mind twists
Away
Til stillness
Calmed
Fretted soul
~A.R.*

Craving freedom
Hardship hurdles
Bound forward
Burning tears
Brushed aside
To see my way
~A.R.*

Years went past
Horror and chance
Terror and love
She carved a way
To free her spirit
Experience known
Shared in trust
For others
A must
She no longer hides
~A.R.*

Little by little
It takes them
Skin and bones
To where
Unknown
Weighted heart
Whirl of life
Destiny known
An end comes
Slow and grim
I lose
My lived one
Mind to body
Forever gone
~A.R.*

Tears streaming
Stand tall
Wobbly legs
Fear in sadness
Changes quick
Life yanked
Away so soon
Prepare 
It's time
Another love
A heart
Stops beating
To knees 
I fall
~A.R*

Young on this earth
Yet wise beyond
Struggling soul
Heart yet large
Desired to share
The story of one
So you know
The many
~A.R.*

Universe above
We all share
Whatever be
Out there
To take us
Into care
~A.R.*

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