Just Words

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Watch for me
In your dreams
The niggling thoughts
Of uncertainty
Self dismantle 
Ego squeezed
Of value
For I am
Yesterdays words
Hurled you saved
Negativity
~A.R.*

Assets 
None
To count
With 
Purpuse 
Devine
None needed
Free love
Flow
Out
Rich heart
~A.R.*

Floating in my head
Thoughts swirl
Surreal moments
Flash past
The days
Long gone
Reality skewed
~A.R*

The world
Just now
Darkness hovers
In depths unknown
Within my heart
A sliver luminates
Bright ember glow
The fire of
Hope
~A.R.*

Cautious feet
Gently tread
Ears alert
For sounds
Of warning
Nature's calls
To flee
Eyes wildly
Search
For safety
Found soon
For haven
Wild world
Shut out
~A.R.*

Shredded in thoughts
A lifetime jumbled
The puzzle pieces
Tossed like salad
No reasoning
~A.R.*

Wicked woman
Slight wisp of smile
Luring dark eyes
Follow her unknown
Blazing trail
Set fire
To life
Or be stung 
By her 
Scorpian tail
~A.R.*

The world
Just now
Darkness hovers
In depths unknown
Within my heart
A sliver luminates
Bright ember glow
The fire of
Hope
~A.R.*

Misunderstood
Wild Girl
Woman child
Curiousity
Of luscious beauty
Seeking wisdom
Pursed Lips
Lines of her
Curving path
Leed you
Away
To Secrets
Hidden
Her eyes
To yours
Open
~A.R.*

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