We Grieve

If you don't have DID this may make no sense to you.

With PTSD, dealing with loss of any kind can be a longer and more trying process than it is for those without the Disorder. 

Add Dissociative Identity Disorder and grieving gets extremely complicated.

For this body there are 5. We vary in age, experiences, perspectives and mindsets. As with anything We are not always on the same page. We do not manuever life the same nor at the same pace. 

To us the Integration sits in how We can operate together in a uniform manner. 

Unfortunate for now the Host cannot hear the 'Alter'/'Others/Parts. This is due to her own traumatic moments with a schizophrenic. 

Back to grieving. 

We have losses.

Recent deaths of an 'Aunt' 

Now the death of an Uncle. 

We as One grieve. Individually one is very sad, one is angry, one is not aware, one disliked the man. 

This is causing distress in how we function. Our ways to deal with this busy but scattered in what is happening when. We have have some inner fighting. We have had moments of terrible anxiety.

 

Beyond our control We do this however it happens. 

To Us for some there is no finish in this process. Stuck perhaps. Lots of questions We and no other can yet explain.