As We Can

Doing the best I can with what I have. 

Ever changing yet not, I am trying to live in my world. I am not one. It is We. Dissociative Identities. 

This 'host'...Me...is overwhelmed by our buziness and life stuff. 

We have far too many balls to juggle

- folks dementia

- recent deaths

-moved

- making new safe home

- creepy neighbour

- friendship losses

- butt pain (surviving Anal Cancer)

- hip problem

- poverty at Christmas

- building remodelling daily noise

- big anxiety

- big tears

Everything changes. 

Too much at once is very hard navigating. As 5 we find ourselves very scattered. A dissociative system in disharmony is incredibly draining for one body. 

Distraction is a good coping tool at times. We also need rest, it is illusive right now. We cook, bake, clean, draw, write, move things, reorganize, paint, draw, advocate, try yo do the Christmas things....

We look for more support, more coping skills and more safe people. 

Finding we slip into agoraphobia easily, we force ourselves out into society. It is holiday season and busy-ness in all forms around can be trying. 

Senses get distressed with overpowerment. Earplugs help. It can help to find refuge in a corner, foyer or bathroom stall. When it is enough then home. Ground in safety. 

So hoping things slow and focus returns. Self care and find rest as it comes. 

Carry on.