Cannabis referal

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I was refered by my psychiatrist for medicinal marijauna. I have had to use more lorazepam or clanazepam for several weeks now. It is time to try a different approach. Liquid is her idea...hoping for a positive body response
So I had my appointment at S H clinic today. They do formal paperwork...normally is approximately $400 to have done but they have compassionate appointments for just OHIP.
I am really upset. The Dr. was completely  ignorant ...to me. I  was and am still crying. He didn't know what DID was...wanted to know sarcastically who I was today. Then wanted to know why I don't work and what I do all day.
I feel ridiculed. Was very demeaning. I  left there with forms done and they don't follow up for 6 months. My referring Doctor is not impressed.
The dosage isn't even correct.
So frustrated with being me tonight.
Ignorance feeds stigma. This is supposed to be a professional. A Doctor who should know better.
Arrogance and ignorance.
My doctor now has to try to  figure out how it can be fixed.
Meanwhile...stressed out struggling.
Really hurt.

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