Difficult day

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Therapy day.
I am very fortunate to have a Psychiatrist that also is an MD. Her forte is PTSD. She sees mostly Military with PTSD.  There are no specialists or groups or really any support for those with dissassocative disorder anywhere close to me, or even in my province. It is frustrating.
Dr. L is really great and I get an hour with her every other week. I also am able to message her whenever I need. She truly cares and is very good.
As you may know...or not...I have struggled lately. I make the best of my good days but I  have been having a lot of panic and little sleep. I have missed more time to alters. I have that new noise in my head. It's a baby crying. It is triggering flashbacks and attacks that mimic seizures.
So I am just really spent. Tired and a bit melancholy (prone to tears and very sensitive). I am also feeling 'raw'. Vulnerable and scared. Makes me irritable at times. I want to cover my head and sleep but I keep pushing.
Today I felt my session was productive but draining. It often is.
Tonight I just shut off my brain and filled it by reading. That and music are great for  distraction.
Now I will pass out. I take medication to help me but it isn't effective to keep Wee down....curious.
So off to bed. Will I wake up missing an eyebrow? Will my furniture be moved? Will the bathroom get cleaned? ???
STAY TUNED

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