Saying goodbye

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I have been left behind, used, hurt, abandoned emotionally...
All my life I have been sensitive about people in my life. I never want them to go. Don't leave me...
I do everything including things that make me puke literally ...like driving all the way to stay with you (no I don't tell you)...or staying overnight or just doing a crowd so I can be with you...
I take meds to try to fit...to push my boundaries...
And even when I am not getting much in return...your crumbs appease me.
Then I can't cry anymore.
It hurts that I am not enough.
I am making myself sick trying to hold on to some love
Say goodbye self...look after self...do it...say goodbye
Tears

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